Tuesday, October 30, 2007

A relationship of great heartache



It feels like a level of betrayal by my body. After the delightful explosions of flavor leave my pleasure pallet my system signals disapproval. How can that be the case with so many God created forms of sustenance? Shouldn't it be over after 25 years...hasn't my body realized it has been wrong to reject these pleasures, these gifts? Why must I love food so much and be denied the freedom of experiencing joy with these libations and victuals. My relationship with food is tumultuous at best these days. Argh, one day I will be able to dance and play freely in the wonder that is food. Can't wait to get to Heaven to eat, drink and be merry.




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Tuesday, October 23, 2007


Today the sun is soft peeking its head from behind the neighborhood on Halsey street. It wispers encouragement to my soul, calling me to relationship with beauty and peace. Today belongs the the author of creativity.

Friday, October 12, 2007

Outside of my box



I put God in a tiny area of my mind...His space is too small there. Tonight He showed me a tiny picture of how my box for Him isn't big enough.
I am a skeptic. For God to speak in big uncontrollable ways such as the dangerous and oh-so charismatic "prophecy"...well I highly shy away from believing most claims to having this spiritual gift are valid. However there is a daily email I get at work titled "Spirit of Prophecy" of which I rarely look at to be honest, yet it is usually rather safe not claiming any radical details of prophetic knowledge or foretelling of blind left eyes being healed and such. But tonight I did. For whatever reason I payed attention and the words I read from the week were too much for me to deny...they were direct messages from God in a series so specific and intimate. So I have posted them (who knows they may be for you too).
These words are the sustenance my soul needed. He is always near...my Jesus is always near me. I scarce can imagine if He were not, and because of His great mercy I do not have to.
As far as this relates to informing you of my life...these are the words I needed to hear from God and He spoke... outside of my box.



October 8, 2007:

You have heard it said, My people, that crisis will bring you into divine order, and I say to you that this is truth. When you are in the fire, My glory shall come forth. Have you not heard of the fourth man in the fire? Even in these days I visit you in the fires of tribulation and in the trials of your life. I am bringing you to a place you have never been before, a place beyond where you have ascended to. I am bringing you to a place of glory in My Kingdom, which has yet to be visited by your generation. And, I remind you that you are a chosen generation, a royal priesthood. So come without hesitation, and allow the fire to burn, for surely it shall consume the works of the flesh, and what will be left is your spirit shining brightly in the Kingdom of God, doing exploits in His name. These indeed are your best days yet. Arise, and shake off every hindrance. Come before Me in faith,and we will walk together in victory, says the Lord.


October 8, 2007:

Be strong, beloved, and refuse to allow the enemy to single you out and whisper in your ear of your failures and shortcomings. The attack against you will come with singular intensity to make you feel like you are the only one "not getting it."It is designed to paralyze you with condemnation so that you can't hear My voice or the voice of encouragement from those around you. Rise up and shut the door to the accuser of the brethren by not receiving the devil's lies. You can choose to only receive the truth of My word, says the Lord, which will usher you into the realm of supernatural victory. John 8:44b " He (the devil) was a murderer from the beginning, and does not stand in the truth, because there is no truth in him. When he speaks a lie, he speaks from his own resources, for he is a liar and the father of it."


October 9, 2007:

Expect to be stretched as your encounters take you beyond the ordinary. You will need to exercise patience in every situation in order to avoid frustration. I am going to shine a light on attitudes, motives and hidden agendas, which will be valuable in making decisions and will in some instances cause you to make a course correction at this time. Your responses to challenges that you face will be extremely revealing and will be a stage for spiritual growth if you are willing to be honest with yourself. Take advantage of these opportunities to grow in discernment, says the Lord. Luke 21:19 "By your patience possess your souls."


October 10, 2007:

My beloved people, take time to put your issues of life into perspective. As long as you focus on your circumstances and feel like you have been victimized you are living life according to the flesh and not walking in the Spirit. And, that is not a good place to be. You are in training and being trained by the Spirit to exist in the Spirit realm. Refuse to allow the enemy to shift your focus from life in the Kingdom to life in the flesh. It is the difference between life and death, victory and defeat. Look up, says the Lord. Romans 8:5 For those who live according to the flesh set their minds on the things of the flesh, but those who live according to the Spirit, the things of the Spirit.


October 11, 2007:

You are about to find out that what you thought would be a quick fix is actually a process. When your quick fix does not work, ask for wisdom and look for alternative ways to accomplish what you need to do. This is no time to give up or get discouraged. As you move through this process you will learn some things that will be very helpful in the days ahead. You will also come to the understanding that My ways are not your ways, and that your methods are inferior to Mine. Yield to this process and keep moving forward. The end will justify the means, says the Lord. Isaiah 55:9 "For as the heavens are higher than the earth, So are My ways higher than your ways, And My thoughts than your thoughts."


October 12, 2007:

Reflect, rejoice, and return to simple faith. Reawaken that child-like attitude towards Truth. Let My Word become to you again as the sharp sword that separates the soul and the spirit.Many of you, My people, have allowed the complexities of life to spoil your pure, unadulterated commitment to fulfill your destiny in My kingdom. Purpose once again to yield to the moving and working of My Spirit to manifest in, around, and through you without fanfare. Be done with attitudes that are unbecoming to a child of God, that bring disgrace to the Body of Christ. Be merciful, says the Lord. Matthew 5:7 Blessed are the merciful, For they shall obtain mercy.


Tuesday, October 9, 2007


I awoke too soon, hardly rested...the feeling of nausea and exhaustion my morning greetings. Pleas to my LORD to be my sustenance, strength and joy are my fuel for perseverance.

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