Wednesday, May 23, 2007

Catch up time


When I started this thing I was all about keeping up on it, but I totally forgot about it! Man that is just like me.
For a bit of a catch up, I am currently working for my Uncle as his office assistant. This came at the perfect time. I needed some cash flow w/ flexibility and this job has provided just that. Although the money is very little it is at least some money! It was also really neat to me that this came along b/c I have been in prayer for my Uncle Kevin for many many years. He is an abusive alcoholic that is full of hate, bitterness and anger. He unleashes the evil of his heart everyday on those nearest to my heart. I have cried and prayed for years that God would redeem this household and take it for Himself.
I believe that the Holy Spirit lives w/in every Christ follower, so according to the Word of God light is within us. I am humbled and excited to be the only light in the darkness of that place. The office/shop teams w/ those captured by the world. It is indeed a dark place, but that is where God shines the brightest! He saves those who are sick not those who are "moral and upstanding" need Him, He goes for the least and most unlikely. How incredibly gracious! I pray truth and light would capture the hearts of every man that comes in and out of that place. I know God is working, and I trust that no matter if I am able to see it or not, it simply is fact.
New on the horizon is a new health practitioner. He does Nutrition Response Testing. My program has me off of ALL grains, ALL forms of sugars(including fruit), soy and corn. I am able to eat only organic meat, dairy and veggies. It has been trying! Even with me being the health nut that I am! But this is my last effort to find help. If this doesn't resolve my health problems, I will submit that it is God's purpose and plan to keep me ill for His glory and my good. This time has caused me to crawl into the heart of God and beg for Him to take over my heart conforming it to His. So many things which I found as part of my identity are taken away, thus leaving me to truly see the treasure of Christ as the object of all my affections. It is challenging me to dig into the truth and wear it as my true identity. I am a daughter of the most High, I am created and bought by the Son, I am free of sin and death, I am alive in Christ, I am righteous according to the life and death of Jesus, I am an heir, I am a servant, I am a new creation...putting on the promises of God. It is still a process and forever will be. However the beauty is that I above all else am in love w/ God, and want ONLY His heart!!! If struggling, being in pain, having a life that is the furthest from what I planned, gets me closer to His heart...I AM ALL ABOUT IT!
That is a bit of me right now. I'll try to be better at posting, lol...I don't even know if anyone reads this, but oh well. It's a good outlet non-the less